Saturday, January 29, 2005

A says,"What is 2+2?" B says,"What do you want it to be?"

2 mid-sem tests, 3 papers, one carrying 40%. No wonder I'm talking in numbers even in my blog's title.

Have you heard someone say, "There is no absolutes. It's wrong for you, but it's right for me"? Hedonese posted in his blogspot recently.

Well, I have not only heard of it, I was pretty much a relativist as far as relativism can get, haha.

So, I may be writing too early a response to "Is Truth Insulin or Ice- cream?", a theological tsunami paving its way to CDPC tomorrow... syiok sendiri, perhaps?

Relativism itself is a mega-tsunami- it just wipes out every sphere of understanding of our rationality on absolute truth- hence, the reason behind the title to this posting. Probably the easiest way to answer a question nowadays is either to answer it with another question ie. "What do you think?" or worse still, "What do you exactly mean by this?" :) and worst of all, "What do you want it to be?"

The world embraces relativism with open arms, simply because it propogates choice. Probably most relativists sing "It's my life" before they go to work every morning.

I find what John Piper said about this is interestingly true, that relativism "has sophisticated advocates in virtually every sphere of learning and life".
Even in the legislative system, we find that the Constitution is no longer controlled entirely by what the founders intended to be, but according to the intepretation of law by its contemporary judges and also by society at large.

Child molestation is now simply known as "intergenerational intimacy". And Man falls for such lame euphemism.

So, is truth meant to be indulged only when we feel like it? Or like insulin to diabetics, it is to be injected unto us, consistently;no matter if it pinches? Maybe our conscience will answer that for us.

Reading a comment by J. Budziszewski on Conscience and the rapid decay of it, it is interesting to note that "Conscience is not a passive barrier (seperti yang banyak orang fikirkan, kerana mereka tidak dapat melihat elemen kebendaannya) but an active force; though it can hold us back, it can also drive us on. Moreover, conscience comes not from without but from within: though culture can trim the fringes, the core cannot be changed. The reason things get worse so fast must somehow lie not in the weakness of conscience but in its strength, not in its shapelessness but in its shape".

It is also saying that we have the natural law- right for all and also known for all. And Relativism rejects the part where it is "right for all".

He argued(rightly, of course) that it is not our conscience that is weakened, but rather, is suppressed; to the point where the barrier of us in believing only in the absolute truth is lifted, and life has become an endless and vicious circle of 'choice'.

So, it is no longer about not knowing the truth; since the existence of the natural law ie "You shall keep to the promise that you made", "You shall honour your father and mother", "You shall not steal, murder" is very much known to us; whether or not we believe in the Bible, but more of escaping the truth and demeaning it by telling ourselves a different story instead.

Simply put it this way, suppressing our conscience does not weaken it, but rather, redirects its force to the opposite direction to justify our guilt. For instance, our conscience tells us that it is wrong to have premarital sex before marriage, but having done so, we justify our guilt by recreating reality- that we don't have to be married to have premarital sex as long as we love each other. Then we plunge deeper, thinking that since consummation is justified through love, therefore any relationships involving love- man with man, woman with woman (who cares?), have equal rights to be married to each other...but since they lack the ability to procreate, thie perversion is further justified by artificial insemination and adoption of children. "It's still a happy family- regardless of whether "Dad is Adam and Mom is Steve".

Relativism is not only about accepting various truths according to our liking, rather; it is encouraging us to live in a state of denial.
Ignorance is bliss? Hardly.

Lastly, J.Budziszewski said that, "To survive what is bearing down on us, we must learn four hard lessons: to acknowledge the natural law as a true and universal morality; to be on guard against our own attempts to overwrite it with new laws that are really rationalizations for wrong; to fear the natural consequences of its violation, recognizing their inexorability; and to forbear from all further attempts to compensate for immorality, returning on the path that brought us to this place."

Powerful, powerful statement.

So, is truth chocolate ice cream or vanilla sundae on a super hot day? More. It is glucose.

Taktik pengiklanan Tehtarik yang sebenar
Agora meeting- Is Truth Insulin or Ice-Cream?
Time: 2 pm
Date: 30 Jan 2005 (Sunday)
Venue: City Discipleship Presbyterian Church (Map:

Tehtarik would not be able to turn up for the meeting, though.
...6 hours of company law lecture, 360 minutes of tortorous interrogation, 21600 seconds of legalistic confusion...on a Sunday...sigh.

Monday, January 24, 2005

The Unwinding Sessions


Traffic jams.


Boring conferences.

3 pm blues- when time appears to be in a standstill.

Traffic jams...again.

Days when one feels like ripping his hair off.

Sounds familiar?:)

Don't worry...

Take a deep breathe...

and look at the skies...

Sunshine seeping through... Posted by Hello

8.00 am. On your way to the office / campus. Wished you were in bed once again. Take a glimpse of the skies... reminds you of a gigantic swimming pool. Imagine going for a tranquil swim.
Listening pleasure: Aquarela Do Brasil by Elis Regina & Toots Thielemans
A Bossa Nova classic-like thick, black coffee, it's bound to give you the
morning perks you need, minus the aftermath jitters.

Mid day...and swirling skies Posted by Hello

12.00 pm- The toiling is only at its beginning and its worst has yet to prevail. Sigh.
Catch a glimpse of the clear blue skies again. Leave yourself breathless.
Listening pleasure: Sweet Thing by Boney James
Soprano sax and groove- as delicious as chocolate ice cream with
banana; only that it leaves you with a soulful vibe; just what you need to get by.

A finishing touch to a day's end Posted by Hello

5.30 pm. Caught in a traffic jam. Peer into the skies from your windscreen. Be mesmerized by the palette of colours strewn across.
Listening pleasure: The Girl from Ipanema by Bebel Gilberto
Like a switch button to unwinding, let its contemporary twist to this yet-another classic prepares you for the night.. of relaxation.

9 pm.

The day is over.

You lie on your couch.

A good book in hand.

A cup of steaming hot tea.

"The Long Day is Over" by Norah Jones to keep you company.

Slowly, you drift...

Friday, January 21, 2005

A pilgrim's companion

"I am glad that God has so tempered our spirits, that we can walk as Companions in this so pleasant a path."- Christian to Faithful, The Pilgrim's Progress. Posted by Hello

Reading Pilgrim's Progress when my mid-semester tests are just around the corner is really a sweet suicide.

Pilgrim's Progress is like a mini travel guide, only that it does not merely highlight the places of interest in which, travellers get to choose whether or not to visit; but rather, places that one would certainly encounter; as one embark on this meaningful process call Journey.

As this Journey mirrors the teachings of the Bible, so does it mirror our journey to God. Even as we are armed with His promise, we may find ourselves travelling alone most of the time. Sometimes, in the midst of being alone, one can't help but to feel Lonely; and at times so compelling, that it is enough to strike a deep longing for a physical presence of companionship.

In Pilgrim's Progress, Christian, the protagonist; begins his Journey by travelling alone, in every way similar to our own Journey respectively. Along the way, he encounters many travellers alike, few being like-minded with him to be on this journey while most,try to tempt him from following faithfully the path that is set before him.
But Faithful is sent to him, and is given a physical personality in which, as the name suggested, brings Christian delight in accompanying him.

Even so because Faithful helped Christian to get back on his feet; just as in all ways that the Faith that we have, though not personified; is not only present with us, but sets us upon a firm foundation that our Journey is worthwhile. Nevertheless, the physical presence of Companionship is just as exciting and comforting to a lonely Traveller as ever.

Somehow, as I imagined the Companionship that both Christian and Faithful enjoy in each other, this song came to mind and I gather that Christian would have very much liked to sing to Faithful; as a token of a appreciation for this heaven-sent companion of his, amid in a very contemporary sense:)

Coz you were there
When no one was
Just when I thought nobody cared
You showed me love
Coz you were my friend
You always told me that
And I am still here
Because you were there.

-You were there, Babyface.

"Then said Christian aloud, Ho, ho, So-ho; stay, and I will be your Companion...but not taking good heed to his feet, he suddenly stumbled and fell, and could not rise again, until Faithful came up to help him."

Truly, I say, Friendship is a wondrous gift; but Companionship is even better, for it constitutes the wondrous giving between two people.

Pilgrims, let us then be each other's companion; travelling together on this Journey which is set before us.

Just as Faithful is to Christian.

Friday, January 14, 2005

The Great Divide.

While Calvin, my boy; seemed to have made a mockery on his religious principles in a most hilarious way, (I still find him too brilliant for a six-year-old, though), the actual doctrinal battle between a Calvinist and an Arminian is anything but a walk in the green meadows.

(Why do I have a feeling I am digging my own grave as I am writing this?) :)

A most interesting conversation over this divide has somewhat became a catalyst to the brewing of a theological 'storm' (but let us just keep this 'storm' in a teacup for the moment, and not raise a tsunami over this...tehtarik, anyone?)

Tehtarik's Rewind:
Teh : So, how have your knowledge on predestination prosper so far?
Arminian: It went on very well, after I talked to my pastor over this.
Teh : What are the deductions that you have come up with, then?
Arminian: I learnt that by labelling ourselves as either 'Calvinists' or 'Arminians' ,we are dividing our church.
Teh : Ohh? Interesting. But, by choosing not to make a stand would be rather self-
defeating, wouldn't it; because when one says "I choose not to believe is also to say
I choose to believe in not believing?"
Arminian: Well, in order not to be a subject of opposition to my church, I've decided that I am an Arminian. My pastor told me that the Church takes the doctrinal basis of Arminians as her own.
Teh : Ohh... but what is your personal stand on this?
(with gleaming eyes, eager to coax her to speak more of this)
Arminian: My pastor told me that"He that believeth shall be saved: He that believeth not, shall be condemned:" And in order to this, "Christ died for all, all that were dead in trespasses and sins;" I believe this is true. Of course, I am not at liberty of will (ok, this is imaginery, touching on free-will pulak) to speak on this anymore as I do not want to cause a divide among other Christians as well.
Teh : Ohh...(aiya, thought can explore further.)

Not many that I have come across would be interested to know about the great divide between a Calvinist and an Arminian, let alone debate over it. It is like walking in a land mine field, you don't know when you are going to step into a bomb!

But, do we then discard these beliefs and be 'peace-loving' Christians with contentment?
"Tak syiok lagi lar!" Some might say.

IMHO, just as we would defend our Gospel, right to the point of our deathbeds due to the greatness of our conviction towards the Word of God; we would therefore have every inclination to defend the doctrines that our forefathers have set before us, no?
John Wesley commented this: "Away, then, with all ambiguity! Away with all expressions which only puzzle the cause! Let honest men speak out, and not play with hard words which they do not understand. And how can any man know what Arminius held, who has never read one page of his writings? Let no man bawl against Arminians, till he knows what the term means; and then he will know that Arminians and Calvinists are just upon a level. And Arminians have as much right to be angry at Calvinists, as Calvinists have to be angry at Arminians. John Calvin was a pious, learned, sensible man; and so was James Harmens. Many Calvinists are pious, learned, sensible men; and so are many Arminians. Only the former hold absolute predestination; the latter, conditional."

But, that itself made a world of difference, doesn't it?
Is it not, by saying, "Christ died for all who believed in Him" somehow has diluted His atonement?
We may cry "It's not fair!" all we want, but doesn't every diversed opinion that we have as Calvinists and as Arminians become clearer, if we think of the Sovereignty of God more highly than the rest?
Doesn't it not make sense to anyone of us that, whatsoever one does to win his salvation is crap if His redeeming grace is never bestowed upon him/her? It would then be termed as "working out our salvation", no?

Of course, I am most torn between the Sciptures that both Calvinists and Arminians use to defend their doctrinal basis respectively. How does one justify "Christ died for all, all that were dead in trespasses and sins" and " I do not pray for the world but for those whom You have given Me, for they are Yours" at the same time?

Maybe labelling ouselves as 'Calvinists' or 'Arminians' is not limited to merely name-calling. It is the foundation of truth that our forefathers of the Church has built upon us. But then again, there is no greater joy than to have that delightful conviction that we hold on to; whether or not we are Calvinists and Arminians, that despite the harsh damnation; we find sweet redemption and favour in His eyes.

Perhaps we should see His sovereignty in Uncle Jon Edwards' joyful light of view,- " in respect to the doctrine of God's sovereignty, from that day to this; so that I scarce ever have found so much as the rising of an objection against it, in the most absolute sense, in God's strewing mercy to whom he will shew mercy, and hardening whom he will. God's absolute sovereignty and justice, with respect to salvation and damnation, is what my mind seems to rest assured of, as much as of any thing that I see with my eyes; at least it is so at times. But I have often, since that first conviction, had quite another kind of sense of God's sovereignty than I had then. I have often since had not only a conviction, but a delightful conviction. The doctrine has very often appeared exceeding pleasant, bright, and sweet. Absolute sovereignty is what I love to ascribe to God. Never any words of scripture seemed to me as these words did. I thought with myself, how excellent a Being that was, and how happy I should be, if I might enjoy that God, and be rapt up to him in heaven, and be as it were swallowed up in him for ever! This I know not how to express otherwise, than by a calm, sweet abstraction of soul from all the concerns of this world; and sometimes a kind of vision, or fixed ideas and imaginations, of being alone in the mountains, or some solitary wilderness, far from all mankind, sweetly conversing with Christ, and wrapt and swallowed up in God. The sense I had of divine things, would often of a sudden kindle up, as it were, a sweet burning in my heart; an ardor of soul, that I know not how to express.
(By quoting Unc Jon Edwards, I believe I have given away my stand subtly, nonetheless.) :)

What joy, what exceeding joy!

This Is Where I Learn my Theology From...(no lar...!)

Distorted Calvinism.
Somebody should teach this kid the TULIP doctrine. Wait a minute, maybe he knows (gasp!, but that's my Calvin) :)
Posted by Hello

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

Emotions- Can we chuck them all into a cupboard?

If only there is a cupboard big enough. My life shall therefore, be trouble-free...or so I thought.

The thematic talk by Rev. Stephen Tong on Christianity and Emotions, opened a funny door to my wandering thoughts, even before he started on the subject.
He gave a refreshing outlook of Psalm 84, using Mount Zion as his picturesque backdrop-

"Blessed is the man whose strength is in You,
Whose heart is set on pilgrimage.
As they pass through the Valley of Baca,
They make it a spring;
The rain also covers it with pools.
They go from strength to strength;
Every one of them appears before God in Zion."
Psalm 84 :5-7

I believe each and everyone who was there left with a personal message of his sermon. While he also spoke of the inability of Man to depend on anything on this earth,- not wealth, friends, family and after the tsunami, not even the grounds that we are walking on; I left, thinking about the emotions that played around with the verses.

Have I set my own heart on pilgrimage as how the psalmist has said?
"Is this real? Is this real? Is God and everything He does in my life real?" My tugging heart kept asking.

Then, reading Uncle Jon Edwards' article on religious affections made me think further (digging my own grave perhaps?)

Being in a true religion has so much to do with the heart.
Unc Jon in his effortless way of complicating his explanation and me in my futile attempts, trying to grasp the idea of it, said: "There are some exercises of pleasedness or displeasedness, inclination or disinclination, wherein the soul is carried but a little beyond the state of indifference. — And there are other degrees above this, wherein the approbation or dislike, pleasedness or aversion, are stronger, wherein we may rise higher and higher, till the soul comes to act vigorously and sensibly, and the actings of the soul are with that strength, that (through the laws of the union which the Creator has fixed between the soul and the body) the motion of the blood and animal spirits begins to be sensibly altered; whence oftentimes arises some bodily sensation, especially about the heart and vitals, that are the fountain of the fluids of the body; from whence it comes to pass, that the mind, with regard to the exercises of this faculty, perhaps in all nations and ages, is called the heart. And it is to be noted, that they are these more vigorous and sensible exercises of this faculty that are called the affections."

How God uses the heart!
“Hear, O Israel, the Lord our God is one Lord: And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy might.” Deut :4-5

I thought of the people who are persistent in denying the existence of God, and those who reject God as Creator, moreover the One who gives us a heart, and tugging it sometimes.
How Man can possess this consciousness, this tugging of the heart if something that displeases him occur or that inclination, that affections, that indescribable funny feeling that he has which messes with his guts; without Design, without the ONE IMAGE who possesses the very heart of Consciousness?- I wonder.

The one point I got this far is that, one cannot truly has any religion at all if the heart is not in it.
And how could there be any religion or beliefs at all,even if we claim that we put our hearts to it, if we reject even the very core existence of the very One who gives us our hearts, and make our emotions so real?

Even as I ponder over this, I was struck by how emotions do not consist only of joy and love but also of grief, hatred and jealousy.
Are they real as well?

"And the Lord was sorry that He had made man on the earth, and He grieved in His heart."-Genesis 6:6

"When Jesus heard it( the death of his beloved cousin John the Baptist), He departed from there by boat to a deserted place by Himself." -Matthew 14:13

How real it is that even God has a a tugging in His heart, and that He, too grieved.

The point, that I am trying to make, rather unarticulately is that,
God has made emotions for us so real, for He possesses this nature and since we are made according to His image, emotions, too are very, very real to us.

Thus, a so-called life for His glory without any emotions in it, would be nothing.
A life with consciousness of the emotions we have but with no God in it, is also nothing.

Friday, January 07, 2005

The MSN-screwtape 'letters'

Christopher and Steven= C S... 'Lewis'?

These brothers in Christ of mine have never stopped 'harassing' me since the day I knew them.
'Harassing' too atrocious a word?


Wait til...

1) you get your sleep pattern disrupted because of Risk-their fantasy game of conquering the world.
Tehtarik-ing the scenario...
Pinky (Chris): Brain, what are we gonna do tonight?
Brain (Steven): Same thing we do every night, TRY TO TAKE OVER THE WORLD!

If you are unfamiliar with the familiar tagline above, it is derived from the hysterically funny cartoon Pinky and the Brain-two discordant(!) lab mice, always on a mission to try to conquer the world.

2) you get your sleep pattern disrupted again because of the confusing and mind-boggling theological questions they asked you.

3) you get your sleep pattern disrupted...again (yes, again) because you spent the whole night debating and pondering over the yet again, confusing and mind-boggling theological questions they asked you.

4) THEY invade your blog site...

Now that's too much.

So, as a token of appreciation to these brothers of mine, I shalt now declare the publications of never-before-seen-by-public MSN conversations exchanged between them.

Synopsis: Christopher meddled with my MSN( and I suspect he not only meddled with my MSN but also with my blogspot...) and took my place to have a very interesting conversation with Steven, who is amazingly unaware of our swap of identities.

Characters: miss wormwood- Christopher/ Christie
Mr Left - Steven
Mr D - Steven's beloved roomate, his identity shalt be an
enigma for now.

Warning: The editor shalt not be labouring with the editing of this fine literature work to preserve its originality and *ahem* element of mischief in it.

miss wormwood says: hey stupid fellow
miss wormwood says: hey leng cai
miss wormwood says: are u coming tonight?
Mr.Left says: wow
Mr.Left says: di called me lengchai, and yennie called me stupid fellow???
Mr.Left says: !!!!
miss wormwood says: are u there?
Mr.Left says: i m here
miss wormwood says: heard u r single
Mr.Left says: errr...i m.
miss wormwood says: ask questions ar?
Mr.Left says: okie kua
miss wormwood says: aiyar...nvm lar
miss wormwood says: you so leng cai
miss wormwood says: sure got a lot of bees swarming over u
Mr.Left says: *hmmm* Diana, don't play play. Yennie, CUT THE CRAP!!!
miss wormwood says: aikkk....
miss wormwood says: ok serious
miss wormwood says: wut u wanna talk abt?
Mr.Left says: who are U?
miss wormwood says: both
Mr.Left says: i cannot take two women at once...pls queue up
miss wormwood says: WOWWWW
miss wormwood says: so wut's ur current research?
miss wormwood says: errr...
Mr.Left says: "Antropological Study On Women With Weird Psycology: An Assessment of Female Local University Undergrads"
miss wormwood says: sounds interesting...give us the data, we'll run a regression with SPSS to determine if the variables are 1% significant or not
Mr.Left says: SHUCKSSS it's the evil e_nerv!!
miss wormwood says: hmmm....wrong deduction
Mr.Left says: who else wilt yield such terrible weapon as the SPSS? Thou taketh me a fool?
miss wormwood says: your eyes are coloured dear fren, u r not thinking objectively
miss wormwood says: btw, if u wanna reach here by 730, u better start preparing soon
Mr.Left says: Nay, I ayme watching a show righte now. Even my deare brethren Mr. D art attending to his owne business.
miss wormwood says: Procrastination is the thief of time
miss wormwood says: Being late is dishonouring God
miss wormwood says: come on leng cai, come lar
Mr.Left says: I succumb neither to thy pharisic preassure nor to thy wolf-call
miss wormwood says: so set urself to biblical standards of punctuality
miss wormwood says: or begin to shape malaysia towards a culture of precision and perfection
miss wormwood says: nothing pharisical though
Mr.Left says: Hark! Flee ye to a more worthy business than to disturb me!
miss wormwood says: no SERIOUS...pls come on time
Mr.Left says: I wilt attempt, but i am feeble and poor. My transport art provided by Mr. D
miss wormwood says: alright, please let him know...we're serious...i think a little bit of discipline in this area will do all of us good
Mr.Left says: ah! He is enjoying hymself too much.
Mr.Left says: i wilt try
miss wormwood says: guide him o sage like how u guide thy sheep
Mr.Left says: As I hath saide, I shalt attempt
Mr.Left says: I aym attempting now
miss wormwood says: press on bro....?
miss wormwood says: wut's emergent
Mr.Left says: Emergent?? hmm...this must be Di
miss wormwood says: ya ya
Mr.Left says: BTW, david is too engrossed!
miss wormwood says: hey, come over...we can talk abt emergent
Mr.Left says: errr...don't ye tempt me!
Mr.Left says: i m helpless...david is the fellow
Mr.Left says: go thee msg his phone
miss wormwood says: ok, doing dat right now
miss wormwood says: empowering CGC to discipline thy seniors
miss wormwood says: must set good precedence
Mr.Left says: alrite...then do it..
miss wormwood says: *disappointed*
Mr.Left says: how come?
Mr.Left says: he does not wanna come yet my fren
Mr.Left says: sabar...i m still persauding
miss wormwood says: okay
- The end....for now. -
I do hope there will be a sequel to this.:)

So, thank you, brothers for an opportunity this grand and for your benevolence in the partake of the contribution to bohtea with me.

"As iron sharpens iron, so a man sharpens the countenence of his friend."- Proverbs 27:17

For all the 'sharpening', confusion, rebukes, constant provocation of the mind, funny, funny ideas of theology that you implant in me, emergent talks, free rides, introduction to all the funny, funny guys like jonathan edwards (no wonder I'm still single) and ruin you brought to my Saturday nights reading their articles (lagi-la single!); I thank thee and thee.

It has been a marathon; but let's keep running!

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

Tehtarik's Complain Centre- Complaint #1

I find I cannot please everybody, well anybody for that matter.

The trouble with standards (apart from standards on morality) is that, everybody is entitled to their own opinion and you can't possibly wrong anybody from that.

I rephrase that.

If the contemporary society has different viewpoints on even on standards of morality, what more can I say on the different expectations that one has to meet to be little-miss-perfect?

How many times have I been conveniently become an object of scrutiny? Hmmm...

1. On wearing t-shirt and jeans for a movie.
"Why can't you wear something that guys don't wear- a skirt for instance?"

2. On dressing up a tiny bit for a nice dinner hosted by a friend.
"Wah?! Where do you think you are going to? Kin ming sing ah?( Off to see a movie star?)
Is that make-up?! (No, it isn't.)

3. On making small talk.
"You know you have a funny way of communicating. Why can't you be more
appreciative?" (The relevance of the second line is still open for questions)

4. On being single.
"You know, you probably would have found someone if you
a) are not so 'cool'
b) are not so cocky
c) stop burrowing yourself
behind some book.
d) stop acting as if you are
smarter than some guy

5. On burdens and responsibilities.
"You know, you don't have to do everything by yourself."

6. On giving opinions.
"Girls shouldn't give too many opinions."

7. On NOT giving opinions.
"If got opinion, say lar; why keep quiet? I thought you banyak opinion wan."

8. On not earning any pocket money during the holidays.
"Yeah, daddy's girl what. Can get anything by just snapping her fingers."

9. On not keeping up with latest trends.
"Why must you act differently from the normal crowd?"

10. On sarcastic remarks made in a good-natured way (Or so I thought)
"Why can't you be more sensitive? You should've been more appreciative."

I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. *Sigh*

It is so ironic how we do not feel pressure as intensely, being subjected to God's perfection but succumb to Man's(sinners, too!) silly expectations on ourselves.

Wonder if God finds this amusing.

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

The end is merely the beginning

Again, another view from my apartment...and rain Posted by Hello

Braved the storm to do this just now... Posted by Hello

Was so fascinated by the rain just now that I simply had to grab my camera and walked out of my tax textbooks for 15 minutes just to 'feel the rain'.

To say that life is back to normal is too grotesque an understatement.
Life will never be the same- not for those who are still pining for their loved ones to be home, not for those whose future is scarred by the wreckage of the killer waves, not even for you and I whose perspective of life has been a walk in the meadow so far.

All is scarred. Even as I was heading back to PJ today,(the mere mention of my hometown would create 'war'), I couldn't stop wondering how these waves of destruction aka the tsunami has changed each and every passenger's outlook on life.

Do they try to be nicer to others, even strangers thereafter?

Do they appreciate their lives more now?

Do they become humbled by the fact that life is like a wisp of air-it can vanish within the blink of an eye?

Even if it is just a it-struck-me-suddenly kind of attitude for those who have not grasped the knowledge of the presence of He Who Is Almighty, one can't help wondering how cleverly God has planted seeds of thought into the minds of many.

For the believers, it reaffirms the nature of The Most High, that in the midst of tragedy, He judges and He also redeems. His wrath brings purification to His church, His chosen people.

For the unreached and unbelieving, it provokes their minds to question Him, to further probe into His divine purpose- to seek Him in one way or another.

"And I say to you, ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you shall find; knock and it will be opened to you." - Luke 11:9

Who would have thought that trouble itself is a wondrous gift from God?
I guess,we'll never quite know until it comes knocking at our doors.

Saturday, January 01, 2005

His ways, not our ways.

It's the new year.

Why do I feel as if I am still living in the past?

It has been an eventful week, both personally and outwardly.

Overwhelmingly eventful.

There are many questions that I find myself not being able to answer.

"Why does God do this to us?"

"Where is He when He hurts?"

"How does a Christian respond to this?"

Instead of ending the year with celebration, this new year is filled with grief, silence, and solemnness.

Instead of grand countdown parties, the New Year is being ushered with questions, perplexity.

Let us begin a new year that God has blessed us,

With humility and repentence.

"But let man and beast be covered with sackcloth, and cry mightily to God; yes, let every one turn from his evil way and from the violence that is in his hands. Who can tell if God will turn and relent, and turn away from His fierce anger, so that we may not perish?"
Jonah 3:8-9

Then God saw their works, that they turned from their evil way; and God relented from the disaster that He had said He would bring upon them, and He did not do it.
Jonah 3:10